experience

i've only experienced death a handful of times. i have a friend. an elderly friend. i thought of him passing away today, and of missing out on the opportunity to see and touch and converse with him again.

he's been my mentor, my spiritual friend and guide.

i first remember loosing my grandfather - i remember everyone crying, walking up to the casket and forcing myself to look inside

then my soccer coach. i was away when it happened

then a co-worker. i held his hand when he was on the hospital bed and not responding

and finally an uncle. i...


talking to a friend, who this man is also a spiritual father to:

me: the idea of us two flying out to him...it's such a beautiful thought

friend: it is. He'd be in heaven

me: ah, now you're making me tear up

friend: We should do it then, when you come back

me: i like that idea. i'd love to.